I want to remember how I am feeling right now. I am so thankful for everyone around me who supports me and Ron through everything. The other day, I asked myself, when were you genuinely happy? Aside from the moment when I said yes and when we said our I dos, it was the time when I saw my mom after she had a major surgery and she was A-okay and the time when my mom's dad underwent a heart surgery and when the nurse at the recovery room told him we were taking a peek at the recovery room's huge window to check on him, he got his shit together and waved at us. It was one of those moments that made me loudly whisper YES and close my eyes in gratitude.
Something happened to one of my closest friends' family that got me thinking about all this. To make sure to take advantage of every moment we spend or may spend with people we love. To keep the negative energy out and instead, keep things positive, to let go of what ifs and what could have beens but instead focus on living a better life.
I took it easy. My mom and sisters were supportive of me and would often ask what my plans were. I didn’t have one, to be honest. Around Christmas time, I almost got a job but the company didn’t want to spend money on social media just yet. So it was a few more months of unemployment. I convinced myself I deserved the time off but somehow, it didn’t feel right to not be doing anything. I finally found a job a couple of months later, although it was not in my preferred industry, I took it. I had a wonderful boss but I had to leave because I found a gem of a job that I am very grateful to have. I don’t where I am headed next but right now, at this moment, I am happy.